That is how I'm currently feeling. I know this happens every year during the winter months. I guess I have that depression that comes with not as many daylight hours, although I've never been formally diagnosed with it. I was coming home a little bit ago and Total Eclipse of the Heart came on the radio and I really listened to the words. I guess now that I am a certain age some of them really hit home. Not the whole I'm not sure of the love that Kenneth and I share, but the rest of it, for instance:
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by....
Every now and then I fall apart...
Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild...
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks...
I've been living with that darkness hovering on the outskirts looking for a way in and I'm fighting letting it. I guess that is why I haven't blogged in a while. Not to mention the craziness of the holidays. Of course the craziness of the holidays helped keep the darkness at bay. I started something with Kristen's 4, that I wish all 7 of them and when Shin has made his appearance and is old enough all 8 of them could be here and participate. I make sugar cookie dough and then cut them out with the grands, then we decorate with icing. This year we made non-Christmas colors to aggravate my son-in-law, who thinks Christmas is just about red, green and possibly gold and silver. :) Here are some pics of that tradition:
I think they turned out really pretty. I always make cookies to share with friends at Christmas time, but the sugar cookies are just for family, because as you can see, they are decorated by hand and slobber and I don't really think anyone but family would appreciate that!
We all had a really good Christmas, the last one that we'll get to spend with Kristen and family for a while. We've been spoiled with them living in Florida, so close to us, and now they are in the Boston area. I think that is part of what has me more bummed than usual, but the positive side is that I love American history, and there is no place better to visit for some Revolutionary history than Boston! Looking forward to that.
Here is a picture of them the night before they left on the big move, and I'm happy to say they made it just fine.
Another thing that gets me in a blue (or Purple and Gold ) funk this time of year is the end of college football! Last night was the BCS National Championship game between Auburn and Oregon. Now as an LSU fan, I was supposed to want the SEC team to win. I just couldn't find it in me to root for Auburn. I'm not usually an Auburn hater, but this year, I just got sick of the thugishness of some of the players during the GA-Auburn game. So I was rooting for the Ducks. Auburn won, it was a great game and not a runaway score. So all in all, I'm pleased that the title stays with the SEC for the 5th straight year, but not pleased that the team was Auburn. Yep, I'm a bundle of contradiction, but I'm a woman and that is by birthright in our DNA. At least that is what I'm claiming. I'm really happy that LSU won the Cotton Bowl and we got ready in a big way in our household.
Yes, even Kujo gets in the spirit, mainly the spirit to stay as far away from his crazy, yelling at the TV, mama. LOL
So to get me through the short daylight hours funk, I have several things to look forward to. First my son is coming home tonight from Korea for a visit:
We are going to a George Strait concert the end of the month and on a cruise in February to warm and sunny Mexico! My 8th grandchild is due in March! So the darkness will not prevail! I might feel RAW, but life is too good, and God has blessed us so much to let me wallow in depression.
Sorry that this blog was sooooo long, and way overdue. I'll try to do better with it!
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